"If I were thinking clearly… If I were thinking clearly, I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark, in the deep dark, and that only I can know, only I can understand my own condition."

"When something bothered me, I didn’t talk with anyone about it. I thought it over all by myself, came to a conclusion, and took action alone. Not that I really felt lonely. I thought that’s just the way things are. Human beings, in the final analysis, have to survive on their own."